There is another kind of trust fall between two people, though. One where there is only one person there to catch you.
That one, I believe, requires a lot more trust. It's just one person. They could choose to quit playing the game and walk away. Or, it could just be a matter of not being prepared for you, or not being strong enough to hold your weight. (Not that you weigh too much, they're just weak). You really need to know that person enough to let go. That is a lot scarier.
In a group, most of the people are going to hold your weight, even if some of them are weak, the combined strength will be enough, and most of them will also have a turn and would not want you to drop them, so they won't drop you, even if one or two walk away, you know that most of them will be there for you. With one person, its just you and them, and there are no guaranties. It takes all of your trust in them to step back and fall into their arms.
You are probably wondering where I am going with this and what it has to do with our home-buying process. As I explained in my post called The Long Journey Home, we are in the process of buying our first house. It has so far all gone much faster than we expected and it was all so exciting, after 11 years of waiting. We were told a few dates on which we might be "closing", which have now come and gone. The mortgage broker and realtor were optimistic that we would close before the projected dates, and it would have, but the underwriters are still nitpicking and taking their sweet time to figure out all the details, when we should be already approved and be done by now.
I am getting stressed out by the unknown aspect of it all. When will we get the keys? When will we actually be able to move in? We gotta let the people helping us move know when we will actually need their help, because, as of now, we aren't going anywhere and we won't be getting the keys today, that's for sure.
I know this is par for the course for home-buyers. It takes a long time and the whole process is dragged out. This is our first home-buying experience. I had thought that things would go slower up till now, but everything has happened so much faster than anticipated that I guess I expected this process would, too. The worst part is just not knowing when. It's like being blinded. Not knowing where I'm going. We try to plan our lives around the dates we were given for the move, and we are hanging in the unknown so we can plan anything. This doesn't just affect us, it affects anyone who is planning anything that concerns us.
It is times like these when your faith is challenged.
I have often heard people refer to "Blind Faith" and to a degree I understand what it means and to a degree I agree with it, but in all reality, trusting in God isn't completely blind. We know who God is and how He operates and what He stands for. We know where we're going at the end of all things. We know what He's up to in the grand picture. It's these times when we can't see the very next little step He wants us to take that we truly feel blind. More like blindfolded for a part of the journey. For the one big step that for a few seconds of time leaves you falling in mid -air. Do you trust that He will be there to catch you when you land? Do I believe that I will be safe in His arms, in His timing? Do I cower in fear and worry that I just don't know what is happening because I can't see? Or do I let go and trust that He is in control? How much trust DO I have in Him? Just take that blindfolded free-fall and let Him catch me. He knows when we will be in our new house and He knows everything. I can trust in His timing and I don't have to stress or worry or fear. I don't have to care about what other people think. I know that God will be there. I can have total Faith in Him. Not blind faith. But maybe blind-folded-for-a-moment faith.
Whee!
